Pilipinas I'll be there

Mentally am preparing my short visit to my native land Pilipinas and typical me the more I think about it the more impatient I become, yet one more month of waiting. :-(

It's been a while, this is my longest time of waiting to go back home in the Pilipinas. Since my parents left in this physical world I lost interest of going back. But then I come to think that I should go back to check if everythings alright with my siblings who are younger than me. As the eldest of the family I always have the feelings of responsibility for them.
.....hahay, it's not an easy life oftentimes in this kind of culture...

I feel divided in two, half of my life I stay here in Scandinavia and became almost a scandinav at the same time my roots and my upbringing always waking me up to care for the people I left behind at home back in the Phils. when each one of us has our own lives. WHY is this feelings???Do they care for me as much as I care for them?? I do not know. Is this feeling just an ego to fill up the emptiness I have here in the part of the world? I wonder.