everyday is learning, most of the time you see only the good things and seldom bad. but when the bad things happen u feel bad, angry or even disappointed.
the last few months, weeks something was bothering my mind. I wish i am not me and be someone else, i wish i am hard and selfcentered. Why I am me?
Why???
sometimes i am vocal with my feelings yet limited in pointing out the people who hurts me and make me disappointed cause i care and protect them.
sometimes u want to talk to the closest person u know and ask for comfort and lend his/her shoulder to cry on - then u only get discomfort bcause this person do not understand u, he walks slowly away while u r preparing ur best version of words, u were able to say half of the essay and there u were alone talking to urself...ur version was not so important to other people.., then the buckets of patience and goodness become overfull i become a "schizophren-like" a monster.
oh holy cow! pls help me to become a witch, make my heart hard and care no one but myself.
i am so disappointed and its paining my soul.
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